I can remember the exact instant when everything changed.
It’s seared into my brain like a photograph.
My doctor was supposed to help me. He was going to explain the vertigo and make it stop. It’s his job after all. You get sick and the doctor helps you get better. How could I have known?
My doctor spoke the words and in the blink of an eye, a terrible potential was made real. The problem wasn’t going to go away. The problem was permanent, and for a long time everything seemed impossible.
Meniere’s disease demanded so much of me. I missed so many opportunities, as if saying no would keep me safe.
But more often than not it was fear, not Meniere’s disease that held me back, and it took me a long time to understand that I often suffered more from regret.
An Impossible Idea:
I have always loved to write. I still have folders filled with old poems, stories and notes from when I was a kid. But I never considered myself a writer, and after I was diagnosed with Meniere’s disease, I didn’t write for a long time.
But nine months ago, as I was falling asleep I had an impossible idea. I realized that just maybe, I knew something that could help others and would be worth writing about.
I had successfully managed my Meniere’s symptoms for a while, but it had taken me so long to get to that point. My journey was chaos.
As I reflected back I realized that, for me, and for a long time, the missing ingredient was hope. I knew there had to be others who were still struggling. I wanted to start writing again. I wanted to share my story, but I was afraid.
I wrote five articles before I even created the blog. I was terrified to share my ideas with the world. When I finally set up the website and clicked publish for the first time, I panicked. It seemed like such a bad idea. Who was I to give advice on anything?
But slowly, I found all of you. I put myself out there and the community caught me with open arms. There were a lot of times when I was ready to give up. But you all kept me going when I wasn’t sure if I could… or if I should. I am forever grateful to the community and to all of my readers. You all have inspired me and helped me grow. I learn from you every day.
At some point, though, I realized the blog would never be big enough to say everything I needed to say.
Maybe I could write a book? No I could never write a book…that’s impossible. I dismissed the thought immediately. But it kept coming back. I couldn’t shake the feeling that it was something I needed to do.
Eventually I decided it was too important to not at least give it a try. It started with a list of 10 ideas. Those 10 ideas evolved into an outline. I dove deep and started researching to expand my understanding.
But I was absolutely overwhelmed. For several days I sat down to face the blank page. But the words wouldn’t come. How could I ever write a book?
Martin Luther King Jr. once said, “If I cannot do great things, I can do small things in a great way.”
My first real breakthrough came when I read this quote and changed my approach. Could I write a book? No, that was still impossible. But I could definitely write 300 words. I made a decision to sit down and write just 300 words every day. Most days it was a terrible experience. But often, I would come back the next day to find something beautiful left behind.
And as time went on, it started to build and build. Until one day, several months later, I realized that my manuscript was finished. 300 words at a time, I had accomplished the impossible.
I couldn’t help but smile. In my wildest dreams, I never thought I could write a book.
So what impossible idea keeps you up at night?
If you are anything like me, there is probably something you want to do, right now. And while Meniere’s disease will limit you, you can overcome the fear. You can achieve the impossible, too.
For the ultimate secret is that most impossible things can be broken down into small possible pieces. And those pieces will slowly build over time.
I am proud and excited to announce that my book is finally near completion and will be available on Amazon in the next several weeks.
I have written the book that I wish I could have read when I was first diagnosed. But it’s not just for the newly diagnosed. It’s for everyone else too, no matter how long you have suffered. It’s a book that will even help your family and friends understand, and better support you.
The chaos, anxiety, and depression that come with Meniere’s disease can cripple you. There is enough conflicting information to make your head spin. It can destroy your quality of life.
But there is also so much hope. I wrote this book to show you that. To show you the potential and opportunity that lies trapped within you. To show you that there is always room for improvement and that you can learn to manage your symptoms and live in harmony with your disease. To show you that you can learn to thrive again.
And though I’m nervous to release my book out into the world, I am proud, and finally ready to put myself out there, one more time.
But no matter what next happens next, I encourage you to have always have hope. Find your impossible idea. Pursue it, nurture it, and share it with the world.
You can achieve the impossible, too.
Even with Meniere’s disease, you have the power to make a difference, never forget that.
I’m giving away 10 FREE advanced release eBook copies of my new book: Mind Over Meniere’s – How I Conquered Meniere’s Disease and Learned to Thrive!
To win a copy, sign up for my email list here, and leave a comment below explaining what impossible thing you would love to do! 10 Winners will be selected from the comments at random on August 20th, 2015.